This is my 1st attempt (since long time ago) of returning to drawing seriously. I use the blind contour technique to outline a portrait, then colored with crayons using my finger tips as tools. It was fun...I felt like I was in Art class again~ I taught my third to seven graders this technique to get them away from the thinking of-perfect drawings. Also, I forbade them to use erasers~~ haha..It's nice to have some authority..like my mom always say: "It's for your own good!"

New & Improved..or at least I hope..

Ok~ It's been a year since I blogged..but I have good reasons to keep to myself. Life was not fun and work was difficult. But after some unintentional happy accidents, I've finally found a place I feel I can belong..professionally. Never could have imagined that it would be possible. It seems that life is finally the way it should be, and I feel more like an adult who can hold my own ground. It is only the beginning for me..but I must say to those who are struggling: you never know where life can take you. Just keep working and keep your dream alive. One way or another, you will come to a point where everything you do connects. :)

Klimt & Mucha

Hmm...I have fallen in love with Klimt & Mucha~~! These guys are old school romantics *kind of womanizers but they are dead so...* who loved to paint beautiful women with amazing patterns. I love the colors, the flowers, the textures....mind-blowing. Wish I can paint like this.

What Art?

In an attempt to make myself a versatile artist, I studied Sculpture, Installation, Drawing, Painting, Makeup & Special Effects, and Jewelery Design. Eventually I should have separated portfolios for each categories, but for now they are kind of jumble together. Any feedback let me know. I am still trying to find a style that is my own. Pretty certain I am leaning towards abstract, modern with crazy motions though. The image is obviously influenced by Pollock. I was feeling frustrated at the time and just wanna play with paint and colors. Splashing the paint made me feel really great!~ Everybody should try it.

What Is the What?

What is the What is the title of a new book I got last night from random choice. It's really turning out to be a very interesting read. But, this is not a book report. *relieved?* I just thought the title reflects my life very well. I don't know about most people, but more than half the time I am wondering how I got to where I am and doing the things I do. Most of my adult life, I've tried to find where to belong, what I would be good at, and what makes me happy. It's a mind-blowing process, and also tiring at times, because there are just so many directions that are desirable. My enlightened ex-boss told me this realization of hers: one need to give up in order to receive. Which, actually turns out to be very true. Honestly, the world is confusing, the social system is crap, the expectations are just suffocating. But then, would we ever become who we are if those expectations are not there to push us forward? Sometimes I envy those who can follow the path happily, trolling along merrily without hesitation. I think things would be much easier if I am okay with that. Over thinking is definitely NOT a virtue. I was told by one of my prof. once that I never seemed to question him. I've always wondered if I did ask him all the questions I have, would he be ready with the answers. I know everyone has his/her own problems one way or the other. Therefore, this is not a vent against anyone. I am simply expressing my confusion. Although, I must say all these crap about politics and religions are really starting to piss me off. Why can't everyone just mind their own business??! Correct me if I am wrong, but I thought the ultimate point is just to be nice to each other? Humanity has really failed big time. Anyways, what the point of this blog is i have no idea. I am constantly contradicting myself. That is my dilemma.